Remember this.

I’m not the most talented student … But what I lack in natural ability i make up for in discipline. Make things possible. Don’t chase dreams, hunt goals.

As Surgeons…

… we ignore our own needs, so that we can meet our patients’ needs. We ignore our friends and families, so that we can save other peoples’  friends and families. Which means, at the end of the day, all we really have is ourselves. And nothing in the world can make you feel more alone … More As Surgeons…

The burnout

I’m scared I won’t be a good doctor. I know it sounds trite. I know I’m compassionate and hard working and knowing everything is impossible…but I’ll never be one of those incredible people who are just so smart that they catch everything. And I’ll be personal here: I’m tragically afraid of being mediocre. We work … More The burnout

Sludge.

Green, thick, mucous like. That’s what it looks like draining out of a gallbladder in a lap chole. It’s also the things holding you down in your life, preventing you from moving forward. Sometimes like mud, other times like quick sand. And we grip on so tight because it’s the only control we know–it’s too terrifying to let … More Sludge.

This was a terrible wake up call. Surgery: Day 1.